Of Mice, Men and Trail

  

  “You watch him be become a God...and watch peoples head’s a roll...”   Megadeth has proven to be the jam of choice on the trip to the cabin.   Countdown to Extinction...hell yeah!
      I was in the lead cruising down the wide path towards the truck.  Bryan was thirty feet behind me keeping up with my forty mile-per-hour pace.  The trail was as wide as a road and Bryan was off-set to my left.  Together like riding Sturgis we were the kings of the trail.  Do they make Ape-hanger handle bars for snowmachines?
    We had been at the cabin all weekend tidying up, doing chores, and performing general prep work for Iditarod weekend.  The wife had called while we were out there.  “ What are you guys doing out there?”  
    “ You know, we are tidying up, doing chores and performing general prep work for Iditarod weekend.”  I explained.  Apparently she didn’t realize;  there’s a lot to do!  Between the tidying up and everything else,  we barely had time for the beer drinking.  Alas, being as talented and cagey as we are we did manage to take care of that part too.
    I digress.  There we were making good time toward the truck when low and behold,  I spied what at first I thought was a leaf blowing across the trail.   Quickly I realized that no, it was not a leaf but rather a mouse no larger than a thimble scrambling across the trail for all he was worth.
    I quickly pointed at the wayward rodent to my trail mate.   By the time I could look back again Bryan had goosed his throttle and was pumping his fist in a gesture of triumphant glory.  
    “Hey did you see that mouse back there?”  I asked once we had loaded the sleds onto the trailer and settled into the cab of the truck.  
    “ Yeah, that little guy is either dead or had the ride of his life!”

Remorseless Bacon

   

 Remorseless Bacon   

Taking my life-lessons from a T.V.Doctor.

      I don’t watch much T.V. but for some reason I found myself tuning into the season finale of a show I’d never seen.  Essentially a “Doctors in Love show”, the title had something to do with the color of someone’s anatomy.  I don’t know.
      In the show,  there is a crazy man that infiltrates the hospital’s security and starts shooting people.  As the story goes, the man’s wife was mistreated somehow by medical personnel.  She died and according to the madman, now all medical personnel must die too.  Riveting stuff.
   Keeping true to the sound principles of formulaic drama series finales, the storyline takes a shocking turn.   Jeff, (let’s call him Jeff) a blue eyed GQ surgeon takes a bullet from the crazy man in the shoulder.  Jeff, who in earlier episodes was sleeping with a lesbian nurse named Mary, lay on the hospitals floor clutching his bloody wound.
       “Wait,  wouldn’t that make her heterosexual?” I asked.
      My wife was patiently humoring me by filling me in with all the background knowledge I would need for this ridiculous show to make sense to me during the commercials.  She is a bit of a connoisseur of such stuff and was a valuable resource to me that night.
   The events of the show thus far pale in comparison to what happened next.  As he lay dying on the floor in the arms of another beautiful young nurse ( yes, he was sleeping with her too), and realizing that he only had minutes to live,  looked up into her eyes and exclaimed with a level of sincerity reserved only for prime time T.V.:  “ I wish I would have eaten more bacon.”
    
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    “That will be thirty two twenty nine”.  I swiped my card.
    “Thanks”.  I grabbed my receipt and bags and left the store.  I had everything packed up and ready for the thirty five mile snowmachine trip to the cabin.  These last minute items would be a nice touch for Saturday’s dinner.  The giant fresh jalapenos would be stuffed with chorizo sausage and chunks of blue cheese and yes the whole thing would be wrapped tightly with with salty, porky, fatty, remorseless bacon.

This one's for you Jeff

Airplane Disdain

                              Airplane Disdain
    
   The  cheery “ding” of the airplane’s P.A  sounded as we came to a jerky halt at the Ted Stevens International airport.   The clatter of a hundred metal buckles undoing filled the air.  We had all been trained to know, despite the never-ending announcements,  that it was now time to unbuckle, and prepare for departure from the plane.
   “Let’s get out of here.” I heard from a few rows behind me.  Sure enough down the isle came the guy from 20D.  He started his push two rows back and was able to advance down the isle as far as a full two rows passed us.  Through his impatience and hustle he had successfully earned himself a four-row advantage in his departure.  Sweet.
    The row behind us included a new family of four.  A young mom and dad in their late twenties were comforting their infant and one year old and had struggled to keep them happy during the three hour flight.  Several desperate crying fits kept mom and dad on their toes.  The one year old was mostly good except during ascent and descent.  I was sure they would have wanted off that plane as soon as possible.  Why weren’t they pushing and jockeying down the isle like Mr.20D?
    The large elderly man in front of me was a trooper having endured five trips the tiny latrine in the back despite having a definitive limp on his left side.  Two of his trips had to be timed with the beverage cart and his wife was watching for it and would usher him to the isle.  Each time he returned his wife would pat him on the shoulder.  It was obviously an uncomfortable ride for him and I’m sure he too wanted off that plane.  Why wasn’t he shouldering himself to the front as soon as the PA “ding” sounded?  Mr. 20 D must be smart.
   The wife and I were used to it and were carting along our two young kids.  My son Corey was mostly happy and had his nose into his electronic game system and my daughter Hazelee was kept at bay mostly by my wife who was micro-managing her every move next to her.  Like everyone on that plane we too wanted off.  But unlike 20 D We waited for our turn.
    I didn’t get a very good look at the guy but he wasn’t a kid.  Mid to late thirties was my guess.  There he stood tight up against the jam in front of him blocking both rows on his sides.  He must have been in a hurry.  

Endeavor to Persevere

Thanksgiving morning 7:00 AM: dinner time 4:00 PM:

“The turkey’s still frozen.”
“What? Both of them?”
    They had been thawing in the fridge for 3 1/2 days, and brining for the last 14 hours in a salty, broth, honey solution.  It should have been enough.  It wasn’t.   First thing in the morning I grabbed one of them out of the brine.  I squeezed it and immediately noticed it’s remarkable similarity to that of a still- frozen turkey.... shit.  
   Funny how plans change.  Originally I had planned to bake one and smoke one outside.  Ten below zero outside temps squelched my smoking plans.  My uninsulated smoker just doesn’t get hot enough when it’s cold out.
     I contemplated the situation with coffee in hand. Maybe they can both fit in the oven at once, I thought.  A tape measure told me no.  The tin roasting tubs were flared out too much, besides the turkeys were too damn wide.  OK think, think.

      I know, I’ll bone them out whole. It was decided. I’ve heard it can be done.  Taking the bones out would allow the turkey to morph into any shape I so desired right?  I should be able to fit both in the oven that way.   A few Youtubes later I was on my way cutting and butchering the meat carefully away from the bone.  Not too different from boning out any wild game I skinned, boned and cut my way around the turkey.  Twenty minutes later Viola!  There it was flayed out before me on the counter; One twenty-pound frozen-in-some-parts turkey minus the bones.  Let the thawing commence!  I grabbed the other bird and started hacking away.
    After a while I made the stuffing and formed a giant egg shaped blob of it nestled it carefully on top.  “Tamra, can I get some help please!”  
     Soon enough all four of our hands were pulling, pushing, and tucking the turkey up and around the ball of stuffing just like Patrick Swayze and Demi Moore in Ghost in the pottery wheel scene, minus the erotic passion.  Our passion was entirely about frustration.
     “ I AM pulling!”  
    “ Your other left!”  
    “ I am jack-ass!”
    “Who you calling Jack?”  I hate that movie.  I digress.
    I didn’t have the appropriate sewing twine on hand but I did have some wooden kabob skewers that worked for at least one anonymous Internet source. I finally got it sewed it up with the pointy wood sticking out every which way.  It was finally contained in one piece!   According to several other ubiquitous Internet sources the final product stitched up and stuffed should resemble the shape of the original turkey.  Mine looked like a sad couch cushion.  I wanted to sit on it.
    We turned it over stitching side down into the aluminum roasting pan.  I tried to fluff up the turkey cushion but it was only a cursory effort.   The blob was already comfy in the shape it had become.  I decided that I better leave enough alone.
     After the second turkey was boned out, seasoned, stuffed, and stitched, we flipped it into the second aluminum roasting pan  just like the first one.  After much aluminum manipulation the oven door was opened for business.  “Into the oven, you fowl beasts!”  I shouted.   A little grunting, shoving and bending of aluminum allowed for closure ( of the oven door I mean.)
     The sigh of relief I was anticipating and any thought of a high-five was cut short when the wife noticed the large plumes of smoke billowing from the top vent of the oven.  ‘What the hell is going on? How could it be burning already?”  
  One of the wooden skewers had apparently skewered it’s little way through the bottom of the roasting pan creating a pipeline of fat drippings onto the floor of the oven.  Interesting.  
    Sometimes in life we are presented with challenges.  We don’t always ask for them but in these trying times it is our true character that is revealed.  I am reminded of the old Indian in “The Outlaw Jose Wales” who was encouraged by the Federal Government to “ Endeavor to Persevere.”  
   “Damn it! What the hell are we going to do now?  We’re screwed, we are SCREWED!”
    During my rant, the wife was starting to appear very foggy to me across the kitchen as the overhead hood vent was unable to keep up with the industrial revolution spewing from the oven.
    “I’ts going to be okay. Grab that cookie sheet.” she calmly reassured me.  I did what I was told.  Together we  transferred the dripping mess onto it and out of the oven.  A quick scrape with a flat metal spatula freed most of the charred turkey fat.  
  “Do you want me to call my brother and tell him to warm up his oven?” she asked.
   “Yeah.”
     I remained put in the kitchen calming myself down while Tamra drove turkey number two over to her brothers house down the road.      Soon the doorbell would ring.  Appetizers of all kinds, desserts, in-laws, jello, champagne, parents, and fancy cheeses all would march their way through the door to the table.  And as to be expected, all the usual rhythms, rituals, and traditions of Thanksgiving unfolded with much fanfare and laughter.     

 In the not-so-back of my mind, I couldn’t help thinking about my two wayward couch-cushion- turkeys sizzling away in separate ovens.  We did have a few boxes of Mac & Cheese in the pantry if it didn’t work out.   Beanie-weenie in a pinch?
     My apprehension laid to rest when several hours later my carving knife sliced directly through like a loaf of bread.  Without bones to negotiate, each full slice contained white meat, dark meat, and stuffing.  I looked over the table and saw that everyone had a crosscut section shaped like a couch cushion on their plate.   It looked good.

               

Dodging Cesspools

Dodging Cesspools     

    It was our last day.  After a fruitless morning we returned to camp and packed up.  To the delight of my co-pilot in particular, we were able to sled most of our way back down the trail, down the valley five miles, back to the truck.  
    With a heavy heart, I began shoving stuff into the truck for the trip back home.   We piled inside and left.  Was this really happening?  Was I striking-out again?  I felt depressing thoughts creep into my mind.  I tried to suppress them but it was tough.  I questioned myself.   Had I not tried hard enough this year? Maybe I should take up bowling or book club instead.  How about sewing, maybe I could learn to sew.
    Then, as I began to figuratively roll up my pant legs so I could start wading into the cesspool of my own self-pity, I saw them there.  They were two hundred yards off the road.  Three caribou grazing in a creek bed continued about their usual business of walking, stopping, eating.  
    Fearing another missed opportunity I pulled the truck over as inconspicuously as I could.  I hoped and prayed they would not be spooked. “Hey Corey look there’s some caribou!”.
    “Where?”
    “Over the hill, let’s get ready.”  Rifling through the truck I quickly found my rifle.  A gentle push on the truck’s door was quiet as a church mouse.  With Corey sidling at my hip,  I carefully maneuvered into positions.  I poked the rifle over the crotch of a spruce branch.   Reaching over-top I  had to snap a few twigs out of the view of my scope.  They were still there!
    The one on the end troubled me.  Head squared-off  in our direction, she knew something was awry.  She was right.  With a twitch and a jump she could spoil it all in a flash.  She probably didn’t realize that this was our third attempt this fall.   She probably didn’t realize that I don’t have any more time-off from work.  She probably wasn’t questioning her own resolve.  My heart pounded in my chest.
    A slow squeeze of the trigger released the firing pin.  The thunder of my 30.06 echoed across the valley.  There in the frozen creek bed she stumbled.  I jacked the bolt open to reload. Was it a hit?  I was pretty sure it was.  I wasn’t going to take any chances. “BOOM” I shot again to be sure.

Text message sent 1700:

Corey:  “Hi mom we got blud on our face so we are not a dicecrace.”
Mom :  “Hope you guys are having fun and staying warm!”
Corey:  “Wer in cant well.”
Mom:  “Yay!!!”

    I was doing the driving, the text-messaging was up to the ten year old -as it should be.  That’s part of the duties of the co-pilot.  I knew it wouldn’t take long for my wife to decode these messages;  She is his teacher after all.   She would know that we had meat for the freezer. Finally.   
    Last year’s meat was dwindling.  Lonely packages of moose, caribou, and deer longed for more of their buddies.  At least we had plenty of salmon.  My subsistence obsession has me hyper-aware of meat levels at our house.  That’s right, I said it;  meat levels.  I know.
    As a Physical Education teacher at our local school, I consider myself a health and wellness advocate and I fully realize the nutritional value of our hunting and fishing efforts.  The lean fresh protein we harvest and consume each year is a direct link to our families health.  Free of hormones, steroids and antibiotics,  I consider our meat organic, free-range, and delicious.  Well worth the effort and time, hunting for us is a family tradition that is looked forward to, planned for, and celebrated.
    Today I felt a weight had been lifted off of me like a curtain of lead and I was happy.  The last few days of tent camping in below zero weather had been awesome in itself but the end-goal is always ever-present in my mind.
     Already I was starting to forget the series of defunct hunting efforts this fall.  On opening day I was devastated to find myself muddling along amongst the masses. An endless sea of motor homes and camo-dudes blocked our every move.  It was akin to combat-fishing for Sockeye on the Russian River in peak season.   I was way out of my element; confused, angry, and a little hurt.  
    The other failed hunt this fall wounded my pride even further.  Our traditional late September moose hunt was riddled with poor weather. It beat us to a pulp.  Purposefully we escaped the crowds through hours of physical labor including over fourteen miles of pushing our 500 pound cart of rafting gear through mud and swollen creeks.  To our utter disheartenment we were slapped down by the rude blanketing of foul weather.  With our tails between our legs, along with my brothers ripped rain pants, we retreated once again back to the sickening comfort of the truck....again.
     A troubled mind no longer, I drove us home with an easiness and a satisfaction that I had long been awaiting.   Privately I revelled in it.  What a beautiful day it was.  The sun shone o’er the valley.  I noticed a light dusting of snow lighting up the rolling hills. Life was good and it was a good day to be alive.  I looked around for birds that might be chirping.   The tune “Zippidy- do- dah” edged into the periphery of my consciousness.   Luckily I snapped out of it before the singing started.
    As we rolled down the snow covered road, I realized that I was in my own world.  I glanced over at my co-pilot who was perhaps a smidge less encumbered by cesspools of self-pity and curtains-of-lead.   The inadequacies of our prior hunting efforts were of no bother to him.  He just wanted to have fun; camping with dad, fires at night, farting in the tent, and cocoa in the morning.  What else is there?  His refreshing outlook was just what I needed to keep me grounded.  Thanks Corey.
    Corey was busying himself with the food while keeping close tabs on the I-phone: changing the tunes, checking for bars of reception, singing, texting, joking.  Earlier he had cheerfully helped me with the field dressing duties:  holding a leg here, pulling on the hide there, here-a-hoof, there-a-hoof, everywhere a hoof-hoof. He had even carried more of the load out this year. I was proud of him.
     
    “What a great trip bubba, thanks for coming with me.”
    He was sifting through the pile of gas station goodies in his lap we had picked up in Cantwell.   Finishing his last bite of microwaved french bread pizza he reached for the water bottle and took a slug.  
    His hair was poking out every-which-way and fully rounded out his post hunting motif.  Food and caribou blood stains smeared down his coat leading to his baggy, black snow pants and untied boots. He wore his battle hardened dirty face unnoticed and therefore unabashed.  
      “It was fun dad, thanks for taking me.”   

Upland Nuances

“Upland Nuances”

By SteveHarrison

          My unfamiliarity with the seemingly esoteric subtleties of the upland bird hunting game had me intrigued. Running a fine balance between my growling and grunting subsistence ideology and my dabblings of fair-chase, I was at a crossroads.  But was I really?  Too long had I lambasted them off the ground or plucked them from a tree-branch with my .22 pistol.  Too long had I flouted the gentile traditions of fair-chase championed by the “real” sportsman.  Now, it was not enough, I told myself.  Was this maturity knocking on my door?   I reached for the .410 hanging among the coats on the hook by the door.  “On the wing today Su, on the wing.”  

    In lieu of the Pendleton hunting sweater with the right-side shoulder patch and the bloomers rollin-high socks, I took down the trail in my standard-issue hoodie and crocs.   Not to be outdone, I made sure the shotgun was draped romantically over my forearm, breech open.  I was ready. Su, running out ahead was flushing her little heart out.  She was hustling and sniffing, darting around hither and thither.  The definitive omega pup of her litter, Su’s subservient manner has closed more doors for her than has been opened but she is always eager to please and senses more in the realm of the hunt than a normal day has in store.  

   Perhaps my heightened sophistication would bump me up the ladder.  Maybe my upward mobility in the hunting social hierarchy would land me at some fancy shooting club where I could chum it up with my new found cronies. Together shooting trap, with our yellow tinted shooting glasses we would call each other “ol’ boy” while swapping reloading tips.

   Perhaps I would find myself at an exclusive country club where the mint juleps would lubricate my hunting fables alongside my new doctoral friends and maybe even a few foreign dignitaries.

   Perhaps a fine woolen Fedora will replace my cotton Adidas ball cap, coming with it (of course) the smoking of a low drooping English pipe.

   The shocking flutter of wings interrupted my daydreaming along with the nervous cackle of the male spruce grouse.   A slamming of the breech along with an upward swing of the .410 had me pinning on bird (or so I thought.)   BOOOOOOM!

   A single twig of spruce, caught in the crossfire, dangled in limbo for three full swings before falling onto the bough below it.  The grouse, grousing at me from the safety of his new perch was silhouetted against the cloudy afternoon sky.

   Perhaps I’m not ready.

   Or perhaps I was kidding myself and perhaps, just maybe I will never care how the bird falls as long as the bird falls.  What about the mint Juleps? What about the Fedora?

  BOOOOOOM!  The bird toppled off the branch like a bowling pin on league night.  Su bounded over the log to gather our prize.

   Within a minute I had stepped on the wings, pulled on the feet, and had all edible meat zipped up in a baggie, heart still beating.  This one would be added to the growing number of them in the freezer.

  Adjusting my ball cap, my fingers stained the bill with blood.   “Good girl Su.”

 

Moose Hunting?

“Moose Hunting?”

  
     If it weren’t for Pete’s declaration last night, I wouldn’t have laughed quite so loud.  “Here’s the deal on rain pants,” he had said.  His matter-of-fact tone was inviting ridicule.  He’s good with that.  In the name of humor and light-heartedness, Pete has always been willing to put himself out-there.  
     “You spend the money on the raincoat, but not on the rain pants.  Pick yourself up some cheap ones like these ones here.  I got em at Wal-Mart.  They’re gonna get trashed anyway... save yourself some money.”  Okay Pete.
     After the laughter died down I moved in closer to inspect.  His “cheapies” had split in two blowing out his entire crotch.  Not only were they split along both legs’ in-seams down to the calf but there was another rip shooting down the backside too.  What was he doing? Hurdling? Goose-stepping?  
     Although my laughter was genuine, I knew these were his only rain pants for the whole week.  “You might have to wear your chest waders.” I offered.  
     The wind had picked up.  It was blowing in our faces, pelting us with gratuitous sideways-rain.  The tires were sinking into the muddy road more and more with each passing hour.  I leaned into the harness, stretching the bungee cord tether taught.  Pete pushed from behind the cart gripping the handles like a wheelbarrow.  “ Hold up,” Pete stopped the train. 
      “What now?” I thought.
     The inner tube had herniated itself through a hole in the sidewall of the tire. The bulbous black plum was jammed against the wooden frame preventing the tire from rolling.  I had left the spare tire and inner tube back in the truck on purpose.  They would be useless without the bicycle pump we had forgotten.  “Well, let’s get this thing off the road.”   Pete grabbed the back as I pulled on the front.
     “BOOOOM.”  The tube-exploded sounding ironically like a gunshot.  Little did we know at the time that this was as close the sound of a large caliber rifle as we would get on this trip.  Like a Labrador on a duck hunt, I couldn't help but get excited at the loud noise. I wagged an imaginary tail.
     Back in the garage, it had seemed a “good-idea” to attach a braking mechanism.  A few years ago I had ripped the cable brakes from a defunct baby jogger.  How cool would it be to debut some sweet brakes?  The load of five hundred pounds of gear mounds over the cart rails like a muffin-top and doesn’t exactly stop on a dime.  There are a handful of downhills on our journey that I felt justified such a modification.  With a one-handed grip I would be a hero.  Plus it was cute, a novelty, like the year my dad attached a license plate to the back.  Pete will be impressed, I thought. 
      Unlike the licence plate though, my nifty idea popped our tire.  Apparently you have to be pretty precise with the placement of those brake pads.  The brakes, tweaking and riding upward with each bump in the road had risen to the sidewall of the tire, rubbing its way through.  From hero to zero in a flash, I took a bitter bite of humble pie.  Coffee anyone?
     Using our big fat brains again, we decided to switch out the front tire with the blowout.  Since the front tire wasn’t supporting as much weight, maybe it would still work even if it were flat. Pete pounded on the end of the front axle with a rock.  
      With Pete’s use of the primitive tool I couldn’t keep the comparison out of my mind between our fumblings and that of our distant cousins; the Neanderthal.   The image of the Geico Neanderthal in-particular darted in and out of my self-image as the day progressed.
      Soon enough we had made the tire switch and congratulated ourselves for our resourcefulness.  As I walked back up to my position at the front, I stopped to bend the brake up and out of the way.  Pete, not trusting my adjustment, came around and snapped it off entirely.  With the harness secured over my shoulders and cinched tightly in the back, we hitched up the wagon again.  Giddy up.

     The flat tire, sagging loosely on the rim was a sad and sorry leader to our efforts through the mud. Pete’s crotch-blowout was flapping in the wind at the back like a wayward rudder. But, with what felt like a new lease we pushed, pulled and otherwise coerced our way towards the back of the valley.

      On the big hill we were reduced to a twenty pace surge. Digging into the road on the balls of our feet, our anaerobic effort pushed us up the hill between rests.  At the end of these pushes, the cart was tilted backwards digging the bottom corner into the mud to prevent us from rolling back.  Four caribou skirted up and over a nearby bench.  They were probably snickering.
      By the time we reached the last stream crossing the creek was swollen.  We didn’t realize at the time that Pete’s clothes bag had cleverly situated itself at the bottom of the cart. It was selflessly protecting the rest of the load from the rushing currents of the stream’s reaches.  The icy waters flushed over the tops of the wheels and onto the bottom of the cart.  
      The boulders in the creek bed were doing their best to halt our progress.  Pete strained against the bungee, pulling it tight.  “One, two, three.. Ughhhh!” .  The cart surged forward.  My numb feet jockeyed for position. 
     Upon reaching the far bank Pete declared a break.  By now the storm was revealing itself fully. The gusts of wind were more frequent.  The undersides of the willow leaves turned and twisted-over in waves lasting several minutes.  We were closer to the snow line now and the rain wanted to make the big change.  I could feel it.  We pushed on for a few more miles. A ptarmigan fluttered and cackled from a nearby bush scaring the bejesus out of Pete. Ahead there were several more hills waiting for us.  Our pace slowed.
     “I think we should camp here,” I offered.  Eight hours and thirteen miles later we had made it to the foot of the switchbacks. Two years ago we had made it all the way to the top of them in the same amount of time.  This year was different on many levels.  I looked up into the pass briefly as the wind pelted sloppy sleet into the slits of my eyes.  Snow covered the upper reaches blending itself perfectly with the blinding white of the stormy sky.  Pete muttered something about Mordor.
     I was cold.  My useless, lightweight gloves had been saturated for miles. I had been warm on the uphill pushes but as soon as we stopped I quickly lost my heat.  My fingers weren’t working well.  As quickly as I could, I ripped open my clothes bag and threw on a few layers keeping my raincoat clenched tightly between my legs. The wind gusted again as the coat slipped out of my knee’s clutches plastering itself against the cart in a stroke of luck.  A quick lunge-move secured it back again. I slung it over my back and zipped it up.
     “Oh Great.” I looked over at Pete.  He was holding up his goose-down coat.  A steady stream of water poured down out of both sleeves before being vaporized by the wind.  Further diggings into his bag would reveal equally drenched garments.
    I cinched up my hood and grabbed the tent bag.  The virtual kite we were constructing kept making a break-for-it.  Setup should have taken us five minutes. A half hour later my frozen fingers were still fumbling around with the rainfly.  Finally we pinned it down with rock anchors on all the guy-lines.  I filled up all our water bottles at the stream before I crawled in.  Methodically, slowly I zipped up my sleeping bag with my cold clammy fingers being careful to keep everything out of the gathering puddles forming on the tent floor.  
    Pete, wielding his undying positivity, no doubt inherited from our mother, cracked a few jokes as he finally situated himself in the tent.  What was he so happy about? I was cold, tired, hungry, and disgruntled about our situation.  Myself, fully aware of the slippery slope of negativism, shut up and let Pete set the tone.  
     The rain slapped itself over the tent in sheets outside our little cocoon . Soon he began gathering together dinner-makings.  He had dragged the food bag close enough to reach from under the front of the tent.  After unzipping enough venting, he lit the cook stove carefully in the tents’ vestibule.
     Pete’s I-pod speaker was hanging from the ceiling and was playing some Dave Matthews.  Dave crooned us over the hiss of the cook stove and the roar of the wind outside.  A few slugs off the rum bottle warmed us as Pete diced, seasoned, jockeyed and joked.  Had Dave Matthews ever weathered a storm like this?
      Myself, slow to warm and tired as hell, was in no mood to cook but today I was lucky enough to be under the good graces of my brother.  Soon enough, served in the lid of the pot itself was a tent-bound meal of savory wonder.
     The sauteed onions and serrano peppers mingled with the browned moose sausage and a few sliced chunks of bratwurst in a slather of olive oil. With that aside he started boiling the water.  In the end, the cheesy Velveeta shells blended it all brilliantly and warmed us from the inside.  
     Years ago we gave up on dehydrated ready meals.  Nowadays we bring fresh ingredients. We cook real food.  “ Wow, this is really good!” I remarked as a greasy wheel of sliced bratwurst tumbled onto my sleeping bag.  The remaining noodle water was poured into empty nalgene bottles and tucked into our sleeping bags for warmth.  Pete was the man today.  
     Another blast of rain rudely spat over us again. Just then, the howling wind subsided long enough for me to hear the roar of the next gust building in the pass.  Soon it would scour over-top and test our barriers again.  Realizing there was nothing left to do, no decisions to be made, I drifted off to sleep rather pleasantly actually.
     The morning light illuminated the tent.  I had noticed during the night that my sleeping bag had taken on quite a bit of water.  I had to retract my feet a bit after I felt the saturation.  The driving wind had flattened the rainfly onto the tent wall on my side allowing for seepage.  I hate seepage.
    “I’m going up to the pass.”  I had been cooped up long enough.  I had slept well, I was warm, and now I was restless with a wet sleeping bag. I gathered my clothes, unzipped the tent and thrust myself out into the gale that hadn’t left us.  





    After re-securing the guy-lines I scooped the wet snow that had accumulated on the tent and refilled the water bottles.  "See you in a few."  I shouted over the wind. 
  "What?"
   " I'll be back in a while, I'm going up to the pass."
     "Okay."
      I set out for the pass, I had to check it out. I had to know.    
     There was slushy snow on the ground blanketing the muddy road.  Each successive switchback produced another inch of snow.  Halfway up the hill it was six inches deep. By the time I was near  the top I was breaking trail in deep, wet snow almost to my knee.  I took a break in spite of myself and realized that the cart wouldn’t roll through this stuff.  The thought of packing our whole kit an additional 1,000 vertical feet through a snow-choked pass was daunting.  
       Soon, I was joined by five ptarmigan.  Popping out from under a bush they scurried up the road twenty feet from me. I could tell they were feeling some anxiety about me but not enough to take flight.  Their half-and-half plumage was beautiful.  Their brown heads clashed with the stark white of their lower body.  Like a sore thumb, they stuck out against the snow. Another one joined them from a different bush. The seven of us, making our way up the hill became unlikely hiking buddies.  Finally after three switchbacks, they warned me with their telltale call and then took flight into the gale winds. “ Tak a tak a tak a tak atakaka akakakakak.” 
      I realized now that our hopes of reaching the moose hunting grounds this year, much like the birds, were swept away in a fit of weather.  I watched the cackling flock blow over the mountainside disappearing into a creek bed near the bottom. 
      I too turned away from the wind,  stepping back down the hill, striding in my own post-hole steps.